Don't Fall Off

Hold onThis last week has been challenging. It started off okay, but then everything went askew. It’s like riding a horse who starts off with a gentle gate and ends up running full bore while jumping and weaving to avoid obstacles1. No matter how hard I hold on, I still can’t keep myself upright in the saddle. That’s how this week ended up. Instead of being able to accomplish something, all my efforts2, all my strength was put towards trying to not fall off the horse.

So, here we are again, at the end of another week, and what do we have to show for it? A half-done web site for a brother who desperately needs one, no work on my site, no Portion study, and I’m so exhausted I can barely function. It’s so frustrating. So very frustrating3.  

This is life with an incurable painful chronic disease4. The horse (life) keeps running, but the disease keeps throwing obstacles at me relentlessly, and sometimes all I can do is just hold on and try not to fall off.